Missing My Sister
I awake each morning to start a new day
But the pain of loosing you never goes away.
I go about the things I have to do
And as the hours pass I think of you.
I want to call you and just hear your voice
but then I remember that I have no choice
For you are not there and now my heart cries
just to see you again to say our goodbyes
The day that you left I just didn't know
That you were going where I couldn't go.
And now all my memories of you are so dear
But gosh, how I miss you and wish you were here.
I miss all the little ways you showed you cared,
For there were so many good moments we shared;
I look at your smiling face in some photos today
Hoping the pain would go away
From the happy times you and I have had,
But now these bring tears and make me sad;
For the time together went by in a wink,
Life was not as long as we’d like to think.
Sometimes memories bring comfort and make me smile,
But there are times when grief takes over for a while
I think of you Mary, every day
our sisterly chats, the words you did say.
The coffees and catch-ups, the time that we shared,
The telephone conversations showed just how much you cared.
We were both robbed Mary, of precious time,
we should be sharing now, and in the years down the line.
You had so much to live for, so much yet to do,
it still feels unreal, being here without you.
I know I have to somehow live with the pain,
of never seeing your smile or hearing your voice ever again.
Surrounded by family, I still feel alone.
My heart is so empty, with pain I must own.
I wish I could hug you and just see your face.
But now I have memories to stand in your place.
Its suppose to get easier with each day
But it doesn’t it feels horrible in every way
I say a prayer every night
That you will hopefully see the light
That your not waiting around to see
What was said or was meant to be
God is calling you to the light
You must go with him and end the fight
I hope I see you when I die
And then I will be happy and will not cry
rachel
21st May 2011
